Moving forward

Llevo meses por no decir años, notando que estoy perdiendo capacidad de atender, y de concentrarme. No, lo cierto es que no estoy notando eso. Lo que estoy notando más es lo contrario. No pierdo capacidad. Estoy perdiendo la batalla que otros (fuerzas innombrables) están luchando contra mi por el poder de mi atención. Para decirlo mejor, cada vez me distraigo más, cada vez me dejo llevar más (dejar parece un acto voluntario y no lo es, no tengo ninguna voluntariedad) por el entretenimiento fácil. No solo me dejo llevar por el entretenimiento fácil para entretenerme (por ejemplo me dejo llevar por los videos de you tube), si no que tampoco soy capaz de luchar por los momentos en los que tengo que concentrarme y diría que soy muchísimo menos productivo. Y eso que ser productivo tampoco está entre mis palabras favoritas.  Entonces, no solo me entretengo peor, de una manera que no me convence, sino que me entretengo cuando no debo y además estoy perdiendo una cualidad que entiendo que ...

In this blog, I am changing from spanish to english.  Apart from that I am telling things about many many issues, because I lost one blog when I delated the xcsoul account. So now here I can tell you about plans, about problems and about things I've learned lately in this life not as quiter as I expected to have. First of all. I am happy. I am very proud of myself and I healed from some of the problems I had last years. After more than 2 years (I lost track of time with this) I am in the place where I want to be. I am in command of my life, I feel I changed and right now I am better at the time of facing problems. And this is the question. I can say I am better even with lots of problems around me. I don't know if I could say the same without problems. I mean when I was on a sick leave at home some months ago I knew I was healing because I slept better, because I didn`t have anxiety, because I didn`t have thoughts (that kind of thoughts I mean). But the final test was to be tha...

  I was thinking of doing this in hand writing or here and finally decided to do it here in order to practice my typing skills. Typing is a useful activity for many reasons apart from the fact that I use the computer daily. It's also a good method to work out on your patiente and in your attention. In spite of I was doing a course I still make a lot of mistakes, most of them related to wanting to be faster and not precise. So, here I am. About this new section I have some notes in one on the notebooks so it's not the first time I am talking about this issue. The idea is to write and to check on all the challenges I try for many and various reasons.  In this case, the reason is to help me on get them. I want to explain to you the reasons, the way and finally the results. 1st GETTING RID OF CHEMICALS IN MY DAILY CARING. WHY. I been suffering from running nose for many many weeks. I think it could be because of the allergy (spring one) and also because of the pool, but I also wan...

 Not in charge. Many plans, many dreams, many challenges but time flies and you have not done anything. Let's see.. -You started to learn how to type faster and better and you gave up. You have improved a little bit but you still make a lot of mistakes while typing. Long way to get it. It would be just a matter of 10 minutes or so. but you do not find time. Where is the time? -Your english... you have a lot of resources and the most important one at the time of learning or mastering a new language that is time. You could read and you do not read. You could write and you forget to write in English, you could watch movies in English and you do but you should do it with a notebook and a pen to take notes and take the most of the experience. You could go to the library and you don't do it. -Meditation... you are doing well -Yoga... you are doing enough -Not wasting time with wallapop and vinted. You are a complete fool with this. This month you are not spending money (at least not ...

 Esta entrada va a ser en español porque creo que el inglés se me puede quedar un poco corto a la hora de expresar todo lo que quiero contar. 1º Decir que he salido o al menos estoy mejor de una crisis que ha venido a durar unos casi tres años. No se si la palabra salir refleja claramente lo que ha sucedido porque entre otras cosas, no se si realmente he salido del todo, se sale del todo o no es en absoluto adecuada la palabra. Nos vamos a quedar con la idea de que tras tres años en los que he tenido altos y bajos, ahora estando posiblemente con más problemas a la espalda, es cuando estoy mejor y no tengo los síntomas que me son tan familiares y reconocibles. ¿Cuanto durará? ¿Habrá recaídas? ... no sé, lo que me parece significativo y da lugar a que pueda decir que estoy bien es que no estando bien del todo.... la rodilla, el problema del IES, la medicación, el tener que vigilar el colesterol, que Laura arrastra problemas, mi padre, etc etc, decía que no estando bien del todo o por...

Some days ago I was saying myself that I know I am happy because I try new things in my life. When I am not in the mood or with anxiety I am not able to do almost anything and I do not do plans. I do not try anything. But when I am happy I like to try news things specially related to my health. This is a list of the challenges, habits and more I am trying right now: -Every day I am taking a nasal bathing  Why? I read (I don´t know where) that it prevents having allergies. The true is that until now I have not feel anything special. It's more, possible is a coincidence, but I've been having a lot nots and problems. So I think it has not worked the way I thought. So I am going to stop for a while, wait and see. If something gets worse I will start again and will repeat it. -I am taking cold showers. I was taking cold showers for more that 3 years (more or less). Then I had my mental problems and I gave up. Not really I used them as a way of struggeling with anxiety and depression...